My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 11
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My Lord,Why am I so ungrateful to You?
I clearly see that
Your Heart is drawn out towards me
To shelter me
And be my strongest support.
APR 997. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 25 December 2001.↩
2
I must be the winnerIn the race of life —
I must!
3
My Lord tells me,“My child,
When your enemies hinder you
In every way imaginable,
Cultivate faith in Me.
I shall be with you,
In you and totally for you.”
4
If I do not careTo manifest my Lord’s Light
On earth,
Why should He liberate me
From the bondages of time?
5
I have come to learnThat my own sincerity-heart
Is a source of tremendous energy
And vitality
In my spiritual life.
6
O my inner faith,You are the only one
To enable me to withstand
All the attacks
Of my stark adversaries.
7
My Lord says to me,“My child, do not give up,
Do not give up!
I am coming, I am coming!
I am coming to you as a Beacon
In your ignorance-night.”
8
Do not doubt,Do not hesitate!
Your God-fulfilment-promise
You will be able to carry through
To completion.
9
Weakness-multitudesSoulfully confessed
Are immediately forgiven.
10
God’s Love is not onlyFor a few selected seekers.
It is definitely available
To all.
Needless to say,
You and I are included.
11
God’s special BlessingsAre not beyond our reach.
It is His genuine desire
That we all receive
His special Blessings
Directly from His own Hand.
122
Time is short, very short.Our uppermost concern
Has to be God-fulfilment
Here on earth.
APR 1008. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 26 December 2001.↩
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God says to me,“My child,
Just give Me once and for all
What you are:
Ignorance-life.
I shall, in return, immediately give you
The abundance of My own Life:
Beauty, Light, Delight,
Perfection and Satisfaction.”
14
I give GodAn iota of my love.
God gives me
His entire Life
And His very Breath.
15
God says to me,“My child, true,
You have gone astray.
But do I not have Love-Power
To draw you back?
Lo, you are back
And once more safe
Inside My Heart-Home.”
16
When God’s VoiceIs my only choice,
He in no time bridges
The longest gap
Between my life and His Heart.
17
I have completely forgotten God,But God tells me that His Heart
Is still sleeplessly occupied
With me and my life.
18
My Lord Beloved Supreme tells me,“My child,
You can doubt Me if you want to,
But you will never be able to doubt
My Love.”
19
My Lord of infinite CompassionSays to me,
“My child,
You express your wild hostility
Towards Me
And I accept it gladly.
I know that is your way of life.
My child,
Since I gladly accept
What you give Me,
Can you not accept
What I have to offer:
My Love, My Concern,
My Compassion and My Forgiveness?”
20
When I meditateSolely on God’s Victory,
I go far beyond
The confines of time.
21
Ignorance-night I have.Wisdom-light I need
To enrich my life
Divinely and ceaselessly,
And God is all ready
To fulfil me.
223
God says to me,“My child,
If you light your heart-candle,
I shall take care of your darkness.”
APR 1018. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 27 December 2001.↩
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The body says, “I can sleep.”The vital says, “I can strangle.”
The mind says, “I can fight.”
The heart says, “I can love.”
The soul says, “I can watch
And send my report to God.”
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God says that He has seen meCountless times,
And I am still the same.
Next time He wants to see me
With a new mind, a new heart
And a new face.
If I fail Him,
He may never give me
Another chance.
25
When my mindWants to speak to God,
God says to my mind,
“You are too close!
Go back at least
One hundred metres.
Do not worry —
I have two very big Ears.
I shall be able to hear you
Very easily.”
26
When my heartWishes to speak to God,
God says to my heart,
“My child, why do you have to stand
So far away?
Am I a stranger?
Come, come very, very close to Me.
The nearer you come,
The better for both of us
To hear each other.”
27
God’s EyeExamines all and sundry,
With no exception.
28
God’s HeartExamines only
The chosen few.
29
My mind thinksIt knows everything
About God.
My heart feels
It has to learn everything
About God
From God Himself.
30
My Master tells meThat if I want to become
A perfect disciple of his,
Then he expects cheerful surrender
And not forced surrender
To His God-oneness-will.
314
I must reachThe summit
Of my God-surrender-ecstasy.
APR 1027. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 28 December 2001.↩
32
Alas,All my meetings with my mind
Are always noisy, unproductive,
Worthless and useless.
33
I feel lonelyOnly when my God-Friend
Is not beside me.
34
God’s Compassion-EyeIs always ready to greet
The seeker in me.
35
God’s Satisfaction-HeartIs always ready to embrace
The divine lover in me.
36
The mind’s self-doubt-blowsAre extremely powerful
And unthinkably destructive.
37
The smiles of my soulAre my heart’s
Heaven-climbing hopes.
38
My God-devotion-heartSteers my life-boat
To the Golden Shore
Of the ever-transcending Beyond.
39
The insecurityOf my inner life
Is the madness-thunder
Of my outer life.
40
My Lord Supreme has blessed meWith an aspiration-road
Which is at once ageless
And endless.
41
My soul-bird is teaching meHow to fly far above
The streaming tears of my heart
And
The brooding fears of my mind.
42
My Beloved Lord’sMost inspiring and most energising
Long-distance calls
Are cordless and wordless.
435
May my heartBe a galaxy
Of God-blossoming dreams.
APR 1039. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 29 December 2001.↩
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To maintain our inner poise,We must give equal value
To success and failure.
45
My unconditional aspiration-heartIs a luxury
I have received from
God’s Compassion,
Affection, Love and Bliss.
46
My heart urges meTo love God.
47
My soul compels meTo serve God.
48
God pleads with meTo remember Him
Sleeplessly and self-givingly.
49
Alas,My mind
Is shockingly heartless.
50
Alas,My heart
Is helplessly homeless.
51
Alas,My life
Is unthinkably godless.
52
Everything deceives meSave my aspiration-heart-tears.
53
The moment my God-obedience-heartStops functioning,
My earth-existence becomes
A colossal failure.
54
To loseA childlike heart
Is to miss
A God-Heart-Smile.
556
The beautyOf the earth-planet
Is extremely inspiring.
APR 1051. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 31 December 2001.↩
56
The dutyOf the earth-planet
Is extremely surprising.
57
The outer worldLoves
Quick motion.
58
The inner worldLoves
Intense aspiration.
59
Every dayIs a holiday
For my God-surrender-life.
60
I climb upAnd sit at the very top
Of my hope-mountain.
61
I climb downAnd become
My promise-fulfilment-fountain.
62
Alas,My body chooses
The lethargy-life.
63
Alas,My vital chooses
The hesitation-mind.
64
Alas,My mind chooses
The impatience-vital.
65
To my great joy,My heart chooses
God’s Protection-Feet.
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O Pilot of the New Year-Boat,Do give my heart a new hope,
My life a new promise
And me a new assurance
That You are going to take me
To Your Golden Shore.
APR 1062. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 1 January 2002.↩
67
O my mind,I beg of you,
Please leave your old life behind —
Please!
68
O my heart,I beg of you,
Please cry more for humanity —
Please!
And please smile more at God —
Please!
69
I know, I know,God’s Compassion-Eye —
For this my heart lives.
70
I know, I know,God’s Forgiveness-Heart —
For this my life lives.
71
I know, I know,God’s full manifestation on earth —
For this I live.
72
God Himself feeds the genuine seekersEvery day.
Therefore, their aspiration-hearts
And their service-lives
Are becoming stronger and stronger
Every day.
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Self-importance —Dangerous, dangerous!
I must shun it
Once and for all.
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The heart never questions,Never doubts God’s Presence
In each and every life
And each and every death.
APR 1070. These prayers were given in Phnom Penh, Cambodia — 2 January 2002.↩
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My Lord,I promise I shall not delay
My unconditional
Surrender-life-existence on earth
Any more.
76
A God-searching mindMust embody
Sincerity.
77
A God-aspiring heartMust embody
Intensity.
78
A God-serving lifeMust embody
Integrity.
79
To see my Lord smiling,Even for a fleeting moment,
I am prepared to cover
The length and breadth
Of the world.
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My Lord Supreme tells meThat He does not stop enjoying
The exquisite fragrance
Of my gratitude-heart-tear-garland.
Editor's note
Sri Chinmoy offered These prayers during his visit to Cambodia in December 2001 and January 2002.
