My Christmas-New Year-Vacation Aspiration-Prayers, part 7
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SecretlyGod travels everywhere
Only to find
A gratitude-heart
And a surrender-life.
APR 597. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 9 January 2001.↩
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I need faithTo the same extent
As I need breath
In my life.
3
We must realiseThat God is always ready
With a helping Hand
To take us
To the Promised Land.
4
Religion is the body.Spirituality is the heart.
Yoga is the breath.
5
When I pray,I see the height of greatness.
When I meditate,
I feel and become
The depth of goodness.
6
My Lord Supreme,In Your Compassion-Eye
I see my heart's
Forgotten beauty.
7
My Lord,You feel my heart's
Helpless tears
Long before they fall.
8
My Lord tells me every dayThe same thing:
"My child,
Intensify, intensify
Your heart's inner cry!"
9
My physical healthEvery day I need.
My spiritual health
I sleeplessly and breathlessly need.
10
My Lord,I most sincerely thank You,
For You love my tiny world.
My Lord,
I am sleeplessly grateful to You,
For You love the entire world
In and through my tiny heart.
11
Everything in lifeWill drive me into the shadows
Of utter failure
Until I start loving God unconditionally
In His own Way.
122
The beauty of my self-givingIs my God-satisfaction
In God's own Way.
APR 608. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 10 January 2001.↩
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God is asking meTo tell Him most sincerely
How far I am willing to go
To please Him in His own Way.
14
Self-interest, self-pityAnd self-indulgence:
These words are not to be found
Any more
In my life-dictionary.
15
No more self-justification,No more!
God-adoration more
And ever more!
16
Nothing is as beautifulAnd compelling
As my Lord's Compassion-Eye-Smile.
17
We love to playMany, many games,
But God loves to play
Only one game:
Hide-and-seek.
18
He is the hero supremeWho longs to fulfil God's
Each and every expectation.
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My Lord,I need only
Two devotion-flooded hands
And one sleeplessly
And breathlessly crying heart
From You.
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May each breathOf my aspiration-heart
Be a communion with God.
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My Lord tells me thatMy heart's sincere cries and tears
Can never remain unheard.
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O my doubting mind,What you right now need
Is severe punishment,
And not enlightenment.
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God-devotion-fireCan definitely burn to ashes
All earthly obstacles.
APR 619. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 11 January 2001.↩
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Since God is all ProtectionFor me,
Can I not be all affection
For Him?
25
God does not believeIn my self-doubts.
Therefore He always maintains
His implicit Faith in me.
26
God tells meThat mine does not have to be
A lifetime of blunders.
It can be a lifetime
Of my perfection
And God's Satisfaction.
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My Lord Supreme,I shall not take,
Even for a fleeting second,
Your Compassion-Eye
And Your Forgiveness-Heart
For granted.
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Alas,I do not know how
God is not miserable
When we, all His children,
Are so unspeakably spoiled!
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Like my Lord's Heart,I shall make my heart, too,
Ever-new, ever-inspiring,
Ever-aspiring, ever-illumining
And ever-fulfilling.
30
I must always give utmost importanceTo my
God-remembrance-sweetness-moments.
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My life thrivesOnly on one thing:
My sleepless God-devotion.
32
Without a one-pointedHeart-intensity,
There can be no
God-realisation-achievement.
33
O seeker,You must realise
That no God-request
Can ever be trivial
Or insignificant.
34
May my morningGod-enthusiasm-leaps
Never stop
During the entire day.
35
I must silenceMy mind-counsellor,
My mind-commentator,
My mind-commander
And
My mind-dictator.
36
My soul and I can easily seeThat God is constantly smashing
His own
Compassion and Forgiveness-records.
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My heart cherishesEverything that my Lord does
And every move that He makes
For the betterment of the world.
38
How I wish I could beWith all the real God-representatives
When they walk the earth!
39
God laughs and laughs at meWhen I do not want to control
My impatient
God-Arrival-anticipation.
40
The Master's heartIs the silence-voice
Of the Unknowable.
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To meditate deeplyIs to soar high, very high,
On the wings
Of God's Compassion-Eye.
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My Lord,I do not mind Your zigzag path
At all,
As long as I find You
And Your Lotus-Feet
At every turn.
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For me to sitAt the aspiration-shrine
Is not enough.
I must become
The aspiration-shrine itself.
APR 639. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 12 January 2001.↩
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My Master's joyKnows no bounds
When he sees
My inner progress reports.
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My heart, my mind,My vital and my body
Have to be always full
Of my
God-manifestation-determination-fire.
46
God wants meTo breathe in deep
Purity-flower-fragrance
All the time.
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O my mind,My unaspiring mind,
Will you ever listen
To the pleadings
Of my bleeding heart?
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I shall no more spendEven a fleeting moment
In my mind's desire-market.
49
From now onI shall always find myself
In my heart's aspiration-garden.
50
It is simply impossibleTo love God only
And enjoy ignorance-sleep
At the same time.
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God's Compassion, God's Love,God's Affection and God's Concern
Have ever-transcending destinations.
52
Humanity is humanity'sSlowest progress.
Divinity is Divinity's
Deepest Concern.
53
To my greatest joy,This morning I was able
To wave good-bye
To my desire-life.
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A real devoteeTakes his Lord's Footsteps
As his own heartbeats.
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God tells meThat it is His supreme Task
To beat my life's victory-drum
At His own choice Hour.
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My Lord Supreme,I have only one desire:
Do bless me
With a never-dying
Gratitude-heartbeat.
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My Lord keepsHis smiling Eye
Inside my heart
And His blessingful Hands
Upon my head.
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I shall never allow my mindTo be dressed in a dark robe
Of God-disbelief,
Even for a fleeting second.
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I came into the worldWith Heaven's Plenitude-Smiles.
I shall return
With earth's infinitude-tears.
60
God wants me to know and feelThat every hour has to be
A new God-discovery-journey.
61
My heart cries and diesOnly for one thing:
The next ambrosial
God-Touch.
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May my life always beEnraptured
In God-manifestation-dedication.
635
No sincere heartWill ever believe
That God's Will
Is extremely difficult
To grasp.
APR 659. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 13 January 2001.↩
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If we live in the heart,Only in the aspiring heart,
Then we can definitely discover
Ever-new ways to please God
In His own Way.
65
My aspiration-heartBegan its journey
From God's Heart,
And it will forever continue
To God's Feet
Of ever-transcending Compassion.
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When a genuine seekerLeaves the path,
God's Compassion-Eye suffers
Infinitely more
Than the seeker can ever imagine.
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God secretly and blessingfullyGives whispering hints
For our continuous inner progress.
68
In the spiritual life,A doubt-enjoyer
Eventually suffers
Enormous failure.
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May my gratitude-heart-wavesConstantly rise and rise
And rise.
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A faith-dislocation-heartIs extremely difficult
To heal.
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Each seeker must discoverThe secret and sacred passageway
From the aspiring heart
To the illumining soul.
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My only happiness in lifeIs my sleepless faith
In my Absolute Lord Supreme.
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From my Master's fastest glanceI receive
A million blessings.
APR 669. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 14 January 2001.↩
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O seeker,Do not sigh, do not sigh,
Do not sigh,
For with each sigh
You slightly die.
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The thrillOf God-service
Is unparalleled.
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The mind says to God,"God, can You not give me
What I truly want?"
The heart says to God,
"God, do give me
What I need
At Your own Time."
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The tears of my heartAre my only aspiration-guides
To take me to Heaven.
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No impurity of the mindCan dare to enter into
My God-gratitude-heart.
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Either in the near futureOr in the distant future,
My dedication-life-train
Must reach
The God-Bliss-station.
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Without God-devotion-tears,We can never have
God-realisation-smiles.
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When I bow to GodWith my humility-heart-prayers,
He immediately blesses me
With His own Crown and Throne.
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Every dayI deeply enjoy the beauty
Of my aspiration-seeds
And the fragrance
Of my surrender-deeds.
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The desire-mind says,"God is nowhere."
The aspiration-heart says,
"God is right here."
The realisation-soul says,
"God is here and all-where."
APR 679. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 15 January 2001.↩
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In the aspiration-election,The heart always wins.
God the Supreme Judge
Summarily rejects the mind.
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The heart unreservedly spends timeOn the mind
For its transformation.
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O endless desire-mind,Be careful!
Your own frustration-night
Will not only frighten you,
But also devour you.
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Quite oftenThe desire-mind fails
Because God's Compassion prevails.
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The heart does notInspect the mind.
It only tries very hard
To connect the mind
With God.
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When the God-realisation-hopeDisappears,
Bring it back
With your heart's streaming tears.
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A tiny progress-stepIs, indeed, a giant victory
In the inner world.
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My God-adoring heart cries,"Where, where, where?"God's Compassion-Heart echoes,
"Here, My child, here,
And nowhere else."
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If necessity demands,Start with a curious mind.
If so is the Will of God,
He will turn your curious mind
Into your serious and precious heart.
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I must dare to dreamOf God's transcendental Smiles
Every night
So that I can manifest God's Light
During the entire day.
APR 689. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 16 January 2001.↩
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Alas, God's GraceIs crying for a tiny place
In my heart-room.
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God wants meTo strengthen my prayer-life
Every day.
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God wants meTo lengthen my meditation-hours
Every day.
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No more shall I cryFor earthly fame.
I shall cry only
For a Heavenly flame
Inside my heart.
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The earthly mindDoes not believe in apology.
It only believes in eulogy
From God.
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Hope disappears.This is, indeed, an earthly experience.
Tears appear.
This is, indeed, a Heavenly experience.
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God does not want me to thinkOf my life's sunset.
He wants me only to think
Of my heart's all-illumining sunrise.
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My progressIs in my constant
God-adoration.
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No moreMy mind's pride-commotion,
No more!
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My heart's silence-sea-invocationMore,
Ever more!
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O seeker,Can you not feel even once
That your faith in God
Is infinitely stronger
Than your self-doubt?
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I was, I amAnd I shall forever remain
A God-meditation-heart.
106
Those who sincerely invoke GodIn the depths of their heart
Can easily become
Life's frustration-depression-challengers.
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The beautyOf soulful prayers
My life is.
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The powerful fragranceOf meditation
My heart is.
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A desire-bound lifeIs infinitely poorer
Than a street beggar's life.
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A God-surrendered lifeEnjoys God's
Infinite Delight.
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The mind-wallI see.
The heart-bridge
I become.
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My God-loveHas to be one-pointed.
If not,
My God-realisation-hope
Shall sadly fail.
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There is only onePerpetual problem in my life:
My self-indulgence.
APR 709. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 17 January 2001.↩
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My Master's earthly presenceIs a rare opportunity
For me to conquer
Ignorance-night forever.
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Unimaginably beautifulAnd powerful
Are the tears of my gratitude-heart.
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My Lord tells me that what I callInsignificant disobedience
Is nothing short of a fatal blunder.
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Alas,All good hearts are crushed
By humanity's cruelty
And indifference.
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When I live a momentWithout God's Breath,
Death immediately becomes
My possessor.
119
There is no differenceBetween a desire-life
And an everlasting
Ignorance-play.
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To make striking progress,The human in me prays to God
For repeated chances;
The divine in me prays to God
For His absolutely last Warning.
121
My Lord Supreme,I have only one desire-prayer:
Please, please send me back
My long-treasured old hope.
122
This morning I was so happyTo offer even
My life's last surrender-prayer-breath
To my Absolute Lord Supreme.
123
God wants me to be myself first.Only then will He turn me into
Another God.
124
May all God-seekersEvery day pray
For the universal conquest
Of self-doubt.
125
Alas,Even the outstretched arms
Of God's Compassion
Cannot reach my dry mind.
126
My Supreme cries and criesBefore He reads my confidential letters.
After reading my letters,
He heaves a very heavy sigh of relief.
127
To me,Each Smile of my Lord Supreme
Is the Smile of the Millennium.
128
Only adamantineDetermination-hammers
Can destroy the mind-walls.
129
May each thought of mineBe shaded
By my Lord's Protection-Tree.
130
When we most confidentlyAnd most powerfully select faith,
Doubt rejects us immediately.
131
E-mail is man-connection,And not God-communication —
No, never!
132
My life can escapeFrom God's Justice-Light,
But it can never escape
From God's Compassion-Height.
133
God-obedienceIs not God-slavery.
God-obedience
Is life-mastery.
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Sweet is God's Eye.Sweeter is God's Heart.
Sweetest is God's Will.
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Religion talks.Spirituality acts.
Yoga becomes.
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May my mind'sGod-ignoring ignorance-rocks
Be totally shattered
Once and for all.
APR 732. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 18 January 2001.↩
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May the entire worldAccept God's Peace-Message
Every day, every hour,
Every minute and every second
For the radical transformation
Of this world.
138
No cruel intimidationCan ever succeed.
Only illumination shall succeed,
Here, there and everywhere.
139
The frustration of my vitalCan be conquered only
With my heart's patience-light.
140
What I desperately needEvery day
Is a God-commitment-prone heart.
141
Expectation-demolitionIs the secret and sacred way
To run the fastest
In the inner life.
142
If you hideFrom your Lord's Presence,
How can He give
His ignorance-conquering Lance
To you?
143
My mind-thought-expulsionI want.
144
My God-invitation-willI desperately need.
145
God tells meThat if I want to explain Him,
Then He will not allow me
To claim Him.
146
In the spiritual life,Do not go
Where simplicity, sincerity
And humility-virtues
Are ridiculed.
147
God tells meThat I must not try to understand
Others' tears.
I must only become implicitly one
With others' tears.
148
If we do not wantTo feed God's hungry Heart,
Then we have to face
Sooner or later
God's angry Eye.
149
Fear strangles us.Courage liberates us.
Courage gives us
What God wants us to have:
God's Victory-promise-manifestation
Here on earth.
150
God will never allowOur God-hunger-heart
To starve.
God will definitely feed
Our God-hunger-heart sumptuously
At His choice Hour.
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May each lifeBe a giant
God-enquiry.
APR 747. These prayers were given in Bali, Indonesia — 26 January 2001.↩
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There comes a timeWhen we realise
That it is only our mind
That has the capacity
To defeat us.
153
In my case,The moment I lost my mind,
I gained my heart.
154
Fault-findersCan never be
True God-servers.
155
God refuses to acceptOur resignation
Because He wants desperately
Our illumination.
156
There is no seatFor frustration
In my life-home.
157
The mind asks,"Who is right?"
The heart replies,
"Only God is right,
Always right."
158
My life is made ofAspiration and dedication.
I wish to utilise them equally.
159
The mind-educationWill never be able to give us
Heart-elevation
And life-illumination.
160
Every morning God singsA very special song
In my heart-home
To inspire me and show me the way
To His Golden Palace.
Editor's note
Sri Chinmoy offered these morning prayers during his visit to Bali, Indonesia in January 2001.
