Illumination-Song and Liberation-Dance, part 2

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Editor's note

50 Bengali songs from 1976. Songbook Version. Published after text version.

Alik Swapan Alik Asha

Alik swapan alik asha
Amar chira sathi
Hatasha mor na dekhe bhor
Bhagna hiyai jwale kebal
Ghor binasher bati

Translation

False dream and false hope
Have become mine,
My inseparable eternal friends.
In my broken heart
I see only the destruction-flame
Of tenebrous night.

Amar Amire Niye Jao

Amar amire niye jao
Shanti baridhi more dao
Tomar charan
Amar swapan
Mor jagaran
Taba kripa dhan
Khama sangit sada gao

Translation

Do take away my little “i”.
Do grant me a sea of peace.
At Your Feet I place my dream-life
And my awakened reality-life.
Your Compassion-Wealth
Is Your Forgiveness-Song,
Which I always hear You sing.

Amar Ashru Nire

Amar ashru nire
Asi ami phire phire
Jachi taba barabhoy
Ogo chira madhumoy
Gahi taba gahi joy
Amar haibe loy

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Amar Chapal Pran

Amar chapal pran
Tomare karite dan
Kata shatabar cheyechi
Asha bitapite
Bedanar shite
Britha more hai bendhechi

Translation

I have tried hundreds of times
To offer my restless life to You.
I have found myself bound
In the huge hope-tree
And in the chill of excruciating pangs.
Alas, I am totally lost.

Amare Apan Karo

Amare apan karo
Amar duhat dharo
Amare karogo jantra
Dao more guru mantra
Ogo sundar daki
Khulo mor hiya ankhi

Translation

Make me Your own, very own.
Only by Your Hand,
O Lord of Compassion,
Make me Your unconditional instrument.
Grant me Your Guru-mantra,
Incantation-fire.
O Lord of Beauty, do open
My heart’s vision-eye.

Amare Diyecho Hasi

Amare diyecho hasi
Amar amire nashi
Amare diyecho kul
Ami taba puja phul
Taba madhu kripa rashi
Amare diyeche banshi

Translation

You have given me
Your transcendental Smile
By having destroyed my little ‘i’.
You have given me
Your Haven-Feet.
I have now become
My heart’s worship-flower.
Your sweet Compassion-flood has granted me
My life’s transformation-flute.

Ami Chai Nahi Pai Kabhu Ami

Ami chai ami chai
Ami chai
Nahi pai kabhu ami
Nahi pai
Asha lagi kandi ami
Asha lagi
Byatha sathe rahi ami
Sada jagi

Translation

I want, I want, I want.
I never get, I never get, I never get.
I cry for my old friend, hope.
Alas, now my only friend
Is an undying life of sorrow.

Ami Kari Prarthana

Ami kari prarthana
Ami jachi santana
Ami kari bandana
Bhule gechi banchana
Ami kari kalpana
Habo taba ranjana

Translation

I pray and pray.
I need Your Consolation-Light.
I worship You alone.
I have totally forgotten my deception-life.
I am now in the imagination-world;
I am hoping to be Your Delight supreme.

Ami Sukhere Dharite Dukhere Dharechhi

Ami sukhere dharite dukhere dharechhi
Asha haye gechhe dukh
Hatasha bedane shata nipirane
Bhenge gechhe mor buk
Dubibar age dhariyachho hat
Dubite daoni jale
Tai dayamoy jiban amar
Sampinu charan tale

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Asha Mor Chalo Jai Chalo Jai

Asha mor chalo jai chalo jai
Paramer hasi ankhi ami chai
Ami habo bidhatar sandhani
Dharanite habo tar jaya bani

Translation

O hope, let us go, let us go.
I long for the smile of the eternal Beyond.
I shall look for my Lord Supreme
Within and without.
I shall grow into His Victory’s message-light.

Bishwa Prabhu Sabai Amai

Bishwa prabhu sabai amai
Bandha kare nache
Mukti shudhu kathar maya
Mukti ki hai ache

Translation

O Lord of the world,
All human beings bind me tight
And dance the dance of destruction-night.
Liberation, what is it,
If not a perfect illusion and delusion
Of the human mind?

Bokar Mato Pichan Pane

Bokar mato pichan pane takai jadi kabhu
Khama karo prabhu
Pagol mato pathe jadi ghumiye pari kabhu
Khama karo prabhu

Translation

Like a fool,
If I ever look behind, O Lord Supreme,
Forgive me.
If I ever fall asleep along the way,
While walking along Eternity’s road,
O Lord, do forgive me.

Chal Ek Sathe Chal

Chal chal chal eksathe chal
E chalar habena biphal
Phutibe jibane puta shatadal
Shatajala habe je shital

Translation

Let us go together.
Let us go together.
Our journey shall know no harm.
In our life’s garden
Purity-flower shall blossom.
Our hearts’ ceaseless pangs
Shall be eternally and fruitfully illumined.

Chetanai Bhara Bedana

Chetanai bhara bedana
Bedanai bhara kamana
Kamanai bhara abani
Hetha ami mari swapane

Translation

Suffering is full of consciousness.
Desire is full of suffering.
The world is full of desire.
And here the dreamer in me
Is dying helplessly.

Cheye Achi Patha Pane

Cheye achi patha pane
Taito amar sukh
Dekha jadi nahi dibe
Kiba tate dukh
Amar shudhu khule dhara
Praner jato andhar kara
Tomar hathe sanpe deba
Sakal jiban bhar
Phuler mato phutiye tola
Ami je tomar

Translation

I am looking for You all around.
Even if I do not see You,
I shall not suffer,
For my sole aim is to open
My heart to You
And offer my imprisoned life to You.
May my life be a life of constant dedication.
And may my life
Grow into Your own blessing-flower.

Dharite Gele Jaina Dhara Hai

Dharite gele jaina dhara hai
Tabu praner katana kichu chai
Ja pele ar haina pete
Ja khele ar haina khete
Ta chere man dibas rate
Mara kiser pipasai

Translation

My vital wants to catch everything.
Alas, everything disappears before
It can catch anything
In God’s entire creation.
O mind, why do you hanker
After the fleeting and fruitless realities?
Long only for the realities
That eternally abide, eternally satisfy
Man’s eternal thirst.

Dubche Tari Dubte Dao

Dubche tari dubte dao
Bhasbe jatha kale
Janis naki praner pran
Dhare achen hal
Egiye chal egiye chal
Langhi giri atal tal

Translation

Your boat is sinking;
Let it sink.
Again, when the Golden Day dawns,
It will float visibly and cheerfully.
And do you not know that
The other Boat,
The Boat of the Inner Pilot,
Will always carry you?
O pilgrims,
Bravely conquer all obstructions on the way.

Dyuloke Bhuloke Jhalake Jhalake

Dyuloke bhuloke
Jhalake jhalake
Tomar parash
Amar harash
Tomar charan
Amar jiban
Ananda banshi
Asimer hasi

Translation

In Heaven and on our earth,
In a twinkling, Your magic touch
Inundates my life with bliss.
Your Feet give me an ever-transcending life
And Immortality’s Flute and Infinity’s Smile.

Ekla Chali Ekla Chali

Ekla chali ekla chali ekla chali
Andhar pather badhar bandhan
Ek nimeshe dali
Ekla chali ekla chali ekla chali
Dukhi dharar mukti lagi
Hriday habe bali

Translation

I walk alone, I walk alone, I walk alone.
I conquer all obstacles on my way.
They all surrender to me, to my light.
I walk alone, I walk alone, I walk alone.
Only for one thing —
The liberation of our sorrowful world —
I shall offer all that I have
And all that I am
To transform the face and fate
Of this poor and feeble world.

Ekti Gopan Katha

Ekti gopan katha
Shudhai ami chupe chupe
Tomai nirabata
Tomar amarata
Bandhbe ki hai kripar dore
Amar malinata

Translation

A secret desire I have.
O silence-light, I wish to ask you,
In silence-flame with your Immortality-sun
Illumine my lifelong impurity-sky.

Ekti Shudhu Chaowa

Ekti shudhu chaowa
Tomar paye tomar giti gaowa
Ekti shudhu paowa
Dur amarar rupantarer haowa

Translation

Only one desire:
I wish to sing Your Victory-Song
At Your Lotus-Feet.
Only one achievement:
I long to become transformation-beauty
Of the ever-illumining Beyond.

Eso Nirakar Tomar Hauk Joy

Eso nirakar
Tomar hauk joy
Eso chinmoy
Tomar hauk joy
Je rupe asibe
Andhar nashibe
Tomar haibe joy
Mrittyur habe khoy
Eso nirakar
Tomar hauk joy
Eso nirakar

Translation

O Formless One,
May Thy Victory be proclaimed.
O Consciousness-light,
May Thy Victory be proclaimed.
No matter which form You don,
I know You will destroy my ignorance-night.
May Thy Victory be proclaimed
And my life of death be banished forever.

Hariye Pathe Priyatame

Hariye pathe priyatame
Elam pathe phire
Ke janere kothai gela
Kon ajana pure
Keu ba bale pabe tare
Guhar andhare
Keu ba bale khonja tare
Nadir opare
Ar parina klanto ami
Pathe ghure ghure
Ebar ami dube jabo
Apan hiya pure

Translation

I have lost my Beloved Supreme
While we were walking along
Eternity’s road.
I do not know where He is now,
In which clime of the unknown Beyond.
Some seekers tell me
That He is to be found
Inside my heart’s dark ignorance-cave,
While others tell me
To look for Him
On the other side of the life-river.
Alas, I am totally tired
And utterly exhausted.
I shall no more search for Him.
I shall just dive deep into my heart-reality
For an eternal rest.

Jabe E Din Jabe

Jabe e din jabe
Sukher e din jabe
Dukher e din jabe
Sthayi kichui habena bhai habena
Jete dao khusi mane
Ja chai jete
Nite habe jaha ase
Duhat pete
Mane rekho sathe kichu jabena
Sthayi kichui habena bhai habena

Translation

I know my days of sorrow
Will come to an end.
I know my days of joy
Will come to an end.
Nothing is abiding here on earth.
O world, let everything go
That wants to go.
Let the things that have to be received
Be received with boundless joy here on earth.
Earth-possessions and creations, alas,
Will never follow us.

Janina Dubibe Kabe Tarani Amar

Janina dubibe kabe
Tarani amar
Ekaki bahite tare
Parina je ar
Tule laha taba kache
Ekhano ja kichu ache
Rekhe diyo bhanga tari
Charane tomar

Translation

I know not when
My life-boat will capsize.
I am afraid it may soon suffer that fate.
I can no longer sail it.
O Lord Supreme, do take away
All that I shall have in my life-boat.
Then I shall place a satisfaction-boat
At my Lord’s Compassion-Feet.

Jedike Phirai Ankhi

Jedike phirai ankhi
Ke jena balichhe daki
Britha bela baye jai
Jib kata asahai
Nayan mudiya rakhi
Aro ki shunite baki
Britha bela baye jai
Kena eta nirupai

Translation

Whichever way I cast my glance
I hear someone whispering.
Time is passing by,
All human beings hopeless and helpless.
I keep my eyes shut.
I have nothing more to hear.
Time is passing by.
Alas, I know not why and how
I am so helplessly and totally lost.

Jibane Marane Madhur Swapane

Jibane marane madhur swapane
Jana ajanar puta hiya bane
Tomar gahibo joy
Ogo prabhu madhumoy
Heribona ar bedan hiyar
Durbal krandane

Translation

In my life and death,
In my sweet dream,
In the pure heart of the known and unknown,
I shall sing Your Victory-Song.
O Lord of Sweetness and Compassion,
I shall see no more
The feeble heart of ceaseless tears.

Jukti Tomar Lagiya

Jukti tomar lagiya
Mukti narahe jagiya
Basana tomar lagiya
Shanti narahe jagiya
Eshana tomar lagiya
Prabhu sada jagiya

Translation

O reasoning mind,
Liberation-flood will never be yours.
O desiring life,
Peace-sea will never be yours.
O aspiration-satisfaction,
The Lord Supreme will always be yours.

Kabe Kakhan Asbe Sedin Kali

Kabe kakhan asbe sedin Kali
Jedin Kali Kali Kali Kali bale
Praner kali dibo dhali
Tor charane ma karali

Translation

Mother Kali, Mother Kali,
Will the day ever dawn
When I shall be able to offer You
My ignorance-life unreservedly
And grow into Your Blessing-Joy
At Your Feet of infinite Compassion-Light?

Kabi Karo Shilpi Karo

Kabi karo shilpi karo
Premik karo more
Bandho amai charan tale
Khama kripar dore dore

Translation

Make me a divine poet.
Make me a divine artist.
Make me a divine lover.
Let me remain bound
At Your Forgiveness-Feet.
Let me grow and grow
In Your Compassion-Heart.

Kata Dure Prabhu Kata Dure

Kata dure prabhu kata dure
Klanta hayechi dure ghure
Janina tomar pabo ki na dekha
Kothai tomar sri charan rekha
Kata dure prabhu kata dure
Tomar banshir shubha abahan
Ghuchak amar sakal bandhan

Translation

O Lord, where are You,
How far are you?
I have covered a very long distance.
I have grown weary.
I know not if ever I shall capture
Your Vision-Light.
I know not if ever I shall be blessed
By Your Compassion-Feet.
O Lord, where are You,
How far are You?
Your Flute of Light
Shall destroy all my bondage-night.
I know, I know.

Ke Oi Dake Aire Bacha Ai

Ke oi dake aire bacha ai
Mayer katha jena shona jai
Kahar seba karte ese
Achi rato kahar sebai
Dhaner lobhe maner lobhe
Mago ar na jena din jai

Translation

Who calls to me,
“My child, come, come”?
I came into the world
To serve the Mother.
Alas, whom do I serve now?
I serve ignorance-night,
I serve material-wealth,
I serve human-pride.
Mother, may I not any more waste
My precious aspiration-life.

Keu Janena Kothai Prabhu

Keu janena kothai prabhu
Jabo ami chale
Base ami thakbona ar
Sudin asbe bale
Charan tomar dhubo shudhu
Amar nayan jale
Tomar kripai bharbe jiban
Amar phule phale

Translation

Lord, nobody knows where I shall go.
I shall not wait here any more
For a golden day,
A supernal dawn.
I shall wash Your Feet
With my heart’s tearful love.
Your Compassion-sky shall help
My heart-flower to blossom.

Mago Amar Tumi Amar

Mago amar tumi amar
Malik kabe habe
Sakal dukhe sakal sukhe
Tomar charan dharbo buke
Kantha shudhu sakal kathai
Tomar kathai kabe

Translation

O Mother, when will You become
The owner of my life?
In all my sufferings,
In all my joys,
I shall clasp Your Feet.
I shall sing only Your Song of Victory
In Your own inimitable Way.

Maraner Banshi Jibane Bajate Chahi

Maraner banshi jibane bajate chahi
Hatashai bhara pran
Asha pakhi mriyaman
Binasher gan bhore sandhyai gahi

Translation

I want to play the flute of death
In my reality-life.
Day in and day out,
I sing the song of utter destruction-night.
Despondency is another name for my heart.
My hope-bird is almost dead.

Mayer Mata Hate Nichu

Mayer mata hate nichu
Shikhli na je man
Bara loker karis puja
Dukhir ajatan
Bhalobasa mayer matan
Dukhi cheler adhik jatan
Achis bhule sahaj satya
Ore amar man
Sakal prane sarba sthane
Achen narayan

Translation

O mind, why have you not learned
To bend your head like the Mother?
You worship the so-called Great One.
Like the Mother, love the weak
And the poor more.
You neglect this simple truth.
Love the world like the Mother,
Irrespective of her children’s achievements.
O mind, why have you forgotten the simple truth
That God in all abides?

Mithyar Habe Parajoy

Mithyar habe parajoy
Tai ami nirbhoy
Tamasar habe parajoy
Tai ami anandamoy
Mithya tamasa jabe chale
Phutibo tomar pada tale

Translation

Falsehood-night is bound to accept defeat;
Therefore, I have no fear,
I have no anxiety, I have no doubt.
Darkness-sea is bound to accept defeat.
Therefore, my life is all light and delight.
Falsehood and darkness will disappear
And my life of gratitude shall blossom
At Your Feet.

Nitya Mukta Amar Sathi

Nitya mukta amar sathi
Ami niranjan
Amar abar trijagate
Kiser bandhan

Translation

My eternal companion
Is Eternity’s freedom.
I am self-enamoured
In the sea of purity.
No bondage I see within,
Without, below, above.

Ogo Mor Puta Asha

Ogo mor puta asha
Tumi amarar bhasha
Tumi hasa tai ami
Ama ghore nahi nami

Translation

O my hallowed hope,
You are the message of the immortal Beyond.
You smile;
Therefore, in me I have my existence-life,
And I do not descend
Into the abyss of inconscience-night.

Parash Mani Parash Karo Dan

Parash mani parash karo dan
Ebar ami shunbo tomar gan
Amai ebar mauna kare dao
Maner kali apan kare nao
Kripa kare ghurcha abhiman
Miliye dao sakal ahangyan

Translation

O Transformer Supreme, do touch me
And make me see all at once.
May Your Silence-Vision
Inundate my life’s confusion and turbulence-life.
May my self-centred life lose
All its self-styled achievements.

Shanti Shanti Parama Kanti

Shanti shanti parama kanti
Amar choker jale
Heribo tomar asha
Bidhatar jaya bhasha
Heribo tomar mukti plaban
Amarar shatadale

Translation

Peace, Peace, Beauty supreme,
Abide inside my heart-tears.
I shall see there
My Lord’s all-illumining Hope
And my Lord’s triumphant Message-Light.
I shall see my liberation-flood
Inside my immortal lotus-heart.

Phule Phule Dule Dule

Phule phule dule dule
Mora nachi kule kule
Kotha hate ese kotha jabo
Bhaba baridhir ogo kandari
Gechhi bhule
Daona palta tule

Translation

We carry flowers of beauty and delight.
We dance and dance
On Eternity’s road.
We know not
Where we come from
And where we shall go.
O my World-Pilot,
Do save Your Boat Supreme.

Phurabe Amar Hasi Krandan

Phurabe amar hasi krandan
Phurabena shudhu asha
Bhange atobar gari tatobar
Balite balir basa
Kena eta shram britha e sadhana
Kena britha bhalobasa
Shudhu toma pane dhai jena mor
Tiyasa sarbanasha

Translation

My life of smile
And my life of cry
Shall one day come to an end,
But not my life of hope.
My hope-life is a rope of sand.
Alas, I know it,
And yet I know it not.
Why do I waver so much?
Why do I see all around me
Fruitless and false love?
O Lord, only one desire I have:
May my sweet, eternal thirst
Find its proper place in You, for You.

Rakhte Je Hoy Bahu Loker Man

Rakhte je hoy bahu loker man
Tahar lagi katai ayojan
Tomar dabi nai je kechai nai
Jibane tai tomar nahi thai
Tabu prabhu kangal seje asa
Amar prane sakal byatha nasha
Janina hai ke je apan jan
Rakhte je hoy bahu loker man

Translation

I have to please all and sundry.
Therefore, my life is in constant preparation.
O Lord, You never make any demand.
Therefore, I have kept no place for You
In my life.
You come to me in the garb of a beggar.
In silence-light you destroy all my suffering.
Alas, yet I do not know
Who is my real friend.
Since I do not know,
I try to satisfy all and sundry
And, what is worse,
In their own way.

Sakaler Prane Nijere Kariya Dan

Sakaler prane nijere kariya dan
Ki amiya dhara karitecho tumi pan
Anute renute akashe batase
Tumi acho nirakar
E jiban nadi toma sathe mishe
Kabe habe ekakar

Translation

I know not what Nectar-Delight You enjoy.
In Your constant Act of Self-Giving,
In the tiny life of an atom,
In the vast life of the sky,
In the free life of the wind,
Formless You sport.
Alas, when will my life-river flow
in Your direction?

Tomar Asar Samoy Kabe Habe

Tomar asar samoy kabe habe
Andhar ghare pradip shikha
Jwaliye dibe kabe
Ebar amar prachur samoy ache
Apan bale keu je nai kache
Sabai geche amai pathe phele
Tumio ki amai bhule gele

Translation

When will the time of Your coming arrive?
When will You kindle the flame of
Aspiration in my darkness-heart?
Much time have I at my disposal now.
Alas, no one close to my heart
Is beside me.
Everybody has left me
On the way to the Golden Shore.
O Lord Supreme, will You also
Do the same?

Tomar Charana Tale

Tomar charana tale
Rekhechi amar kritagyatar
Ashphuta shatadale
Tomar hridaya pure
Kalush amire harabo ebar
Maha ananda sure

Translation

I have placed the unblossomed
Lotus-heart of my gratitude
At Your Feet supreme.
I shall lose my impurity-life
Inside Your Heart of light and delight
And grow into the song
Of transcendental Delight.

Tomar Kache Jai

Tomar kache jai
Tomar pete thai
Charane taba kandi
Mor amire bandhi
Tomare ami chai
Jiban bane pai

Translation

I go to You to place myself
At Your Feet of Compassion.
I cry ceaselessly at Your Feet.
I forcefully bind my little ‘i’
To Your Compassion-Feet.
I want You alone.
May my desire find its satisfaction-light
In the forest of my life.

Tomar Sukhe Hasi Ami

Tomar sukhe hasi ami
Tomar dukhe kandi
Tomai pete ashar deshe
Tomai ami bandhi

Translation

I smile with You when You are happy.
I cry with You when You are sad.
I always want only one thing:
To be Your own, very own,
In the heart of Your blessingful,
Eternal Vision.

Tumi Nahi Baso Bhalo

Tumi nahi baso bhalo
E hiyar ghor kalo
Ami durbal ami chanchal
Nahi phute prane asha shatadal
Dhalo kripa sudha dhalo
Asimer khudha jwalo

Translation

You do not love
The dun darkness of my heart.
I am weak,
I am helpless,
I am restless.
Hope-lotus does not blossom
Inside my heart.
O Lord, grant me
Your infinite Compassion-Delight.
Grant me the joy
Of infinite hunger.